I Can Feel You

It was the way you looked at me when you thought I didn’t see you. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you thought about me. Yes, I could feel you. It was those insecure moments of doubt. Yes, I could feel you. It was the unspoken words but the look in your eyes. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you sound when you talked to me. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you sang when I answered your calls. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you pulled me close. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way my heart fluttered at just the thought of you. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you said my name. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you lightly tickled my ass. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way you kissed me. Yes, I could feel you. It was the way I smiled when I spoke about you. Yes, I could feel you. It was the touch of your hands, skin on skin and the security in your arms. Yes, I could feel you. Although we are apart and the silence is deafening. The love i have for you is unconditional it runs as deep as the ocean and as wide as the seas. I can still feel you.

Rushing Into?

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Time is of the essence that is what the mind says. Everything is rushed and nothing is ever thought out properly. Details are overlooked and the finished product is most definitely half complete.

This is how most relationships are created or come together. It’s all rushed and there is hardly ever any time invested in the details. People rushing into situations as if their very life depended on the relationship. Sure we all want that “Happily Ever After,” that “Everlasting Love.” But do we really sit back and consider the work that must be put into even having that type of relationship?

 

My Thoughts

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I bet you think my thoughts are about you. I bet you think I am waiting and holding my breath for your return. I bet you think that I have sleepless nights and horrible days. You really do think a great deal about yourself. What you forgot to note is that my thoughts are mine. Something you wish you could control. What’s in that past can’t be changed. What’s in the here and future are yet to be seen. What I know is for me to know and you to TRY and find out. – Her Truth

My King

BE799573-EE15-448A-B417-6AECBE505069I want a “King.” Give me the man of my dreams. I want a King that is confident and sure. Knows what he wants and has no reservations . I want a King that has love in his heart and has no problems showing it from the start. I want a King that will protect and uplift me physically, mentally and spiritually. I want a King that holds me close to his heart and hands me the keys to his. Until death do us part. I want a King that values and respect what he has and won’t do anything to jeopardize the ties that bind. I want a King that honors loyalty and understands and practices true honesty. I want a King that knows there is more to a relationship than money and materialistic pleasures. This King knows his Queen is a treasure. I want a King that will sweep me off my feet and never let me go.

Things I May Not Know

There are many things I didn’t know about you. I never knew what really turned you on or what turned you off. I never knew what made you happy or what made you sad. I never knew what excited you or what dampened your excitement. What I did know is that I saw the light in your eyes whenever we came together. I heard the happiness in your voice whenever we spoke on the phone. I felt the electricity between us whenever we made love. By the way, it turned me me on to see your eyes roll in the back of your head. I know you fight demons but those demons kept their distance whenever we were together. They knew I was around so they dare not bother. I know that you made a change when you felt real love for the first time. There was a pep in your step and your heart was lighter. I know you walked away simply because you got frightened. Real women like me do exist. It takes a “Real” man not to resist. We know how to let a man be a King and run his kingdom. We don’t step in the way of his individual freedom. We don’t place judgement on his past, we show him a true love that’s destined to last. We defend his honor and never back down. We do all of these things because he’s out shined all the other clowns. The return is something no one will ever understand or better yet comprehend. I may not know everything about you but one thing is for sure, I brought a quiet to your storm. I brought a calm to your seas. I touched a place that other women can’t conceive. My question now is,”Who’s your “REAL” Queen?

The Third Party

Dealing in a “Third Party” situation can be detrimental to a positive outcome. I, didn’t quite understand it at first but hey, I’ve got it now.
To understand “Third Party,” is to know it doesn’t always mean to physically cheat. It can mean to try and sneak away from something. To cheat the death of a situation by being unwilling to address the situation. Everyone knows, you cannot cheat death, it’s inevitable.
From where I sit, it’s all about the energies, habits and mindsets that exist. There are major players involved but it’s more about the energy and the souls. To explain, there are different types of Karmic situations all in different phases. Each soul learning from the other but of course, one may not realize they are learning or better yet not willing to learn. Some souls are open to change while others choose to remain the same.
I came across a soul that has the most amazing gifts. Their gifts are so deep and profound, kind of eerie even. This took me through some hard realizations but definitely worth the lessons learned. How might you ask does this make sense? Well it kind of works like this.
Two souls find one another in the midst of their own personal turmoil. Neither one of them had intentions on coming together. Both going through major life changes trying to find themselves and working on releasing negative ties that bind, “Third Parties.” Those souls intertwine and something unlocks which opens up a flood of unexpected emotions that were once buried and hidden from the world. It feels good, it’s refreshing, it’s fiery, it’s passionate, and it’s fast and even addictive. So what’s so wrong with that!?! Everything imaginable, it’s faulty, it’s not stable, there’s room for error and it’s going to crumble.
The fact is there is unfinished business that has yet to be addressed. It can’t be ignored nor will it just go away. There are other soul ties and negative energies that must be released. There are deep wounds of the past that must be dealt with and healed. There are addictions, to what degree no one truly knows but must be controlled.
The soul has to be willing to face what is uncomfortable in order to receive what the universe has to offer. This is what is known as, “The dark night of the soul,” those secrets that have never been told. The soul is willing to go down a “Rabbit Hole.” Releasing that thing that feels so right, no longer holding on so tight. Now this doesn’t mean those souls will come back together. It just means that they see what could be and decide to put in the work for the betterment of their life.
Whatever that looks like for your situation, you fill in the blank. Either way it’s sliced, the “Third Parties” have to go. Imagine yourself in the “Matrix.” Do you take the BLUE PILL or the RED PILL? One will leave you just as you are and the other will open up a world that you have never seen or could ever imagine. I can’t tell you which to choose, as for me, I chose the RED PILL.

What is Love?

There is a passage in the bible 1 Corinthians 13:4-13 ESV that speaks on the real meaning of love. We all have our own definitions but the fact of the matter is Love takes on all forms but I choose to stand on what is written in the bible.

Of course there are a few different types of love which are as follows: Eros (Erotic Love, named after the Greek god of love and fertility.) Philia (Affectionate Love, to show affection for someone friend or family.) Storge (Familiar Love, something that feels familiar to you and someone else.) Ludus (Playful Love, having fun with someone, hanging out enjoying each other’s time.) Mania (Obsessive Love, constantly obsessing over something or someone. Not really love but the illusion of love.) Pragma (Enduring Love, a love that never grows old no matter how far apart you are from someone.) Philautia (Self Love, something we all need in order to even understand what love means.) Agape (Selfless Love, giving of one’s self or thinking of others and not always putting yourself before another.)

With these different types of love, which ones do you possess? I am sure at times we have all had a go with at least 4 out of the 8 if not all. I know for me, I can be honest and say I have experienced them all. The ones that I choose to possess in my life are Eros, Philia, Ludus, Pragma, Philautia, and Agape. I choose these because although I am not perfect, I try and think on the lines of “What would Jesus do?” No one will ever fill His shoes but they can sure work at trying. No greater selfless love was when He was willing to sacrifice His life for mine. He loved those that didn’t love Him back. He healed, mended, and even spoke to those that most of us would leave on the side of the curb just by the way they looked. As for Eros, well that should be self explanatory, not to mention, there are different types of Erotism.

I am learning that in dealing with relationships, not all of them are meant to be in your life for a lifetime but in it for a season. Yes, we’ve heard this before but it is a really true statement. Those that come by for a season are to teach us lessons. In this passage I’m speaking strictly on love. Those that stop by for a season are merely meant to teach us a lesson and then move on to the next. Or if we missed the lesson, then they will surely continue to stop by until we have learned the lesson.

I am currently on Philautia Love (Self Love) and Agape Love (Selfless Love), knowing when to turn all that love on self and be selfish with myself. Understanding that there is nothing wrong with taking time for one’s self and not owing any explanation to anyone. If there is a need for explanation then it shall be given otherwise, it is just my time. In giving selfless love, I am learning when to not push but be patient and understanding. It is not easy to give Agape Love simply because we have to learn when to back away. Yes, in my opinion, Philautia and Agape can become intertwined. Knowing when to let go for your own sake and happiness but also being able to see past yourself to truly see someone else. We never know what a person is going through and to really see that, we have to remove what we may want from that person to see that maybe they are not ready to give it’s called understanding.

Many may not agree with me but that is quite alright because there is such a thing as “Agreeing to Disagree.” My life has been nothing but lessons and retakes and that is quite alright with me. I have never been too proud of learning and receiving correction. For as long as I am on this earth, I will continue to learn and share my lessons. There is always someone out there that needs a message. My job is to give the message and plant the seed.

Be gentle with yourselves and watch how others become gentle with you. Love can be amazing in any form you receive or give. Blessings and Love.